Multiple dating has caught up with me!

Brace yourself for an update!

As you all know, the Dating Diva has not constricted herself recently to just one man. Rather, I have taken advantage of my single status by going on dates with different people, and keeping my options open. So far, it's been quite fun, and has taken a lot of the stress I usually feel out of dating. I don't worry about if guy #1 is going to call and when, because I'm too busy lining up my date with guy #2. I don't focus all of my attentions on one person, I don't do anything too serious with anyone - I just enjoy the dating life.

Recently I met a guy who really impressed me. Actually, this was more than a month ago ago but I haven't blogged about him yet because I didn't want to jinx it. Anyway, he is Moroccan so he speaks French (nice!) and henceforth will be known as The Moroccan. Our first two dates have been amazing, and he has expressed that he has feelings for me already. Everytime I think about him or talk about him I get butterflies. We get along so well and even closed out the restaurant on our first date because we didn't want to stop talking (the staff were literally sweeping around our table and giving us the evil eye because we weren't leaving). On our second date we went to the movies and played arcade games. I've never had so much fun on a date. We had so much to say to each other, we like the same books, and are interested in the same things. I knew I was in trouble, but was starting to consider that I might actually, geniunely like somebody again.

So then, two things happened. The first thing was that the Morrocan stopped calling me a lot. He's busy with school, which I understand, but he has started forgetting to call on the days he says he will. I'm willing to put up with a little bit of absentmindedness due to the stress of graduate school, but it's been a few weeks since we have seen each other and I'm feeling unsettled. He promises we will see each other once he is done with school sometime next week, so we'll see.

The second thing that happened was something I completely did not expect. Software Sam, the guy I met back in September and who I decided I just wanted to be friends with, has come back into the picture. After I gave him the just friends speech, he actually started being a really good friend to me. I know he has wanted more, but we have been talking a lot and really getting to know each other. I feel  like I can tell him anything and I feel very comfortable with him. He even knows that I am dating other people. What started out as not feeling right for a relationship has started to evolve into...something. I don't really know what, but I am definitely starting to see him in a different light.

SO. There you have it. The latest. I feel very confused and guilty and worried all at the same time. I really care about Software Sam, but I also want to see where this thing with The Morrocan goes. I promise to keep everyone updated in between feeling sick to my stomach and tormenting myself with confusion and guilt.